After 20 years...

Dearest Someone,

everything hasn't been easy for us back then...
we were young and very in-love(at least on my part)...

that was 1990... when we met...
believing everything will be okay...
but then... i have to leave... even if i don't want to...
i begged and cried...
but i have to obey my parent...
my heart was filled with anger...
and i was really hurting inside...
knowing i will be miles away from you...

but i have to endure it... i have to be strong...
believing... hoping... someday we can be together...
that hope was a comfort and gave me patience...
to wait for the future...

all i can do was to send you letters at that time...
i did everything just to be strong...and not give up...
i am young and foolish at that time...
and... i love you...
nothing else matter...

year 1993, when we finally moved from La Union to Malolos...
i was really happy...i can finally see you in just a couple of rides...
my family knew how important you are to me...
i did everything i can... i hope you knew that...
just to make our relationship work...

i study hard...
while trying to reach you...
to be with you in every way i can...
you have been my inspiration...
my strength...but life has been very cruel...

after 6 long years... you just decided to gave up on me...
i know i have my own share of fault & mistakes...
which i felt very sorry...and i hated myself for that...
i was hurt... very hurt...
and nothing i can do to make things work for us at that time...
but i still have the strength to hang on...
so i decided not to give up...
because in my heart i always believe that destiny will bring as back together...
that true love never ends...

then, i needed to go to college...
i was very lucky to have been granted a scholarship...
i want you to be proud of me...studying occupied my time...
but i always make it a point to pass by your house...
when i have time... hoping to see you...

i did finished my studies with honors...
but medals around my neck...felt worthless...
without the people i want to offer them with...
after that, I managed to find a job...
a job where i can be near you...
i decided to live with my grandparent...
just to be near you...
knowing you're just a couple of streets away...
means a lot to me...

i waited for you to realized that i am here...
i waited for you...to accept me again...
i have waited for you... to love me again...
my hopes and faith vanished when i found out about her...
i felt devastated... because that was the time...
that i finally realize that my heart must let go...
that i have to acknowledge that you have drifted further away from me...

i guess that's how love works...
i must learn to let go...
and i must learn to accept...
that there are things that wasn't meant me...
even if i wanted it so badly...

we have our separate lives now...
but i have waited 20 years to tell you these...

Sa iyo ko natutunang maging matatag...
Sa iyo ko natutunan na ipaglaban ang taong mahal ko...
Sa iyo ko natutunan na tumanggap ng pagkatalo...
Sa iyo ko natutunang magpakumbaba...
Sa iyo ko natutunang magparaya...
At higit sa lahat sa iyo ko natutunan magmahal ng tunay...

Dahil diyan...lubos akong nagpapasalamat na nakilala kita at minahal...

If i will be given another chance to live my life all over again...
I wouldn't change a thing...
God have blessed me enough when He allowed me...
to be part of your life...

now...
i think...
I can let the missing puzzle piece fit in...