"If"

"If," ...
What a useless word!
A ticket to an eternal preoccupation with the past -
and with how it could have been...
It was the way it was...
It is the way it is... And that is that...
We make the choices we have to make...
Yes, we may look back and realize...
how wrong or foolish we were to have taken the route we did...
but the fact remains we can only make today's choices...
with today's information, wisdom, and providence...
I realize all this now - but heaven alone knows..
how I have stretched the tape of my mind's eye...
rewinding and re-playing those last few conversations...
re-reading those last letters...
imagining what would have happened if....

I had not stop myself from running to you...
and ask you not to easily give up...
and tell you the words that choke me still...
Would it have made a difference if I had?

I have become a firm believer that nothing happens by chance...
Do you remember that basketball game...
when you made that winning shot...
and told me that it was for me...
that was the sweetest memory I ever had in my whole life...
But because of my unknowingly mistakes you disappeared...
What a cruel destiny...
I wonder how many people realized...
how deep the water I had landed in was...
Perhaps I was drowning...
For months I have stood mummy-like...
Can I go on?
Would it make a difference?
I've struggled to find satisfaction in a world of unshared pleasures...
Yes, I have shared many things with many people -
but my soul has always ached for you...



~Anonymous~

The Saddest Love...

The saddest love is...

when you know that you love this person...
and that person loves you too...
and still wants you...
but the circumstances...
don't let you have each other...

2 decades had passed... Our lives have changed so much,
but not my feelings... not my goddamn feelings...
No one can ever take your place...

~Anonymous~

Slice N' Dice

I enjoyed my first visit in this restaurant.

I hate garlic, but i did love their garlic rice, which was a surprise. I also like their grilled chorizo and coffee toffee.

They have this 99 peso meal. Available in many kinds of steak. It could be a T-bone steak, or a garlic steak etc. For only less than one hundred you will get the chance to experience a very good food. It was very affordable and at the same time delicious. It was all tender plus the rice was perfectly cook!

Slice n' Dice is way way cheaper compared to the other steak houses that we visited.

After 20 years...

Dearest Someone,

everything hasn't been easy for us back then...
we were young and very in-love(at least on my part)...

that was 1990... when we met...
believing everything will be okay...
but then... i have to leave... even if i don't want to...
i begged and cried...
but i have to obey my parent...
my heart was filled with anger...
and i was really hurting inside...
knowing i will be miles away from you...

but i have to endure it... i have to be strong...
believing... hoping... someday we can be together...
that hope was a comfort and gave me patience...
to wait for the future...

all i can do was to send you letters at that time...
i did everything just to be strong...and not give up...
i am young and foolish at that time...
and... i love you...
nothing else matter...

year 1993, when we finally moved from La Union to Malolos...
i was really happy...i can finally see you in just a couple of rides...
my family knew how important you are to me...
i did everything i can... i hope you knew that...
just to make our relationship work...

i study hard...
while trying to reach you...
to be with you in every way i can...
you have been my inspiration...
my strength...but life has been very cruel...

after 6 long years... you just decided to gave up on me...
i know i have my own share of fault & mistakes...
which i felt very sorry...and i hated myself for that...
i was hurt... very hurt...
and nothing i can do to make things work for us at that time...
but i still have the strength to hang on...
so i decided not to give up...
because in my heart i always believe that destiny will bring as back together...
that true love never ends...

then, i needed to go to college...
i was very lucky to have been granted a scholarship...
i want you to be proud of me...studying occupied my time...
but i always make it a point to pass by your house...
when i have time... hoping to see you...

i did finished my studies with honors...
but medals around my neck...felt worthless...
without the people i want to offer them with...
after that, I managed to find a job...
a job where i can be near you...
i decided to live with my grandparent...
just to be near you...
knowing you're just a couple of streets away...
means a lot to me...

i waited for you to realized that i am here...
i waited for you...to accept me again...
i have waited for you... to love me again...
my hopes and faith vanished when i found out about her...
i felt devastated... because that was the time...
that i finally realize that my heart must let go...
that i have to acknowledge that you have drifted further away from me...

i guess that's how love works...
i must learn to let go...
and i must learn to accept...
that there are things that wasn't meant me...
even if i wanted it so badly...

we have our separate lives now...
but i have waited 20 years to tell you these...

Sa iyo ko natutunang maging matatag...
Sa iyo ko natutunan na ipaglaban ang taong mahal ko...
Sa iyo ko natutunan na tumanggap ng pagkatalo...
Sa iyo ko natutunang magpakumbaba...
Sa iyo ko natutunang magparaya...
At higit sa lahat sa iyo ko natutunan magmahal ng tunay...

Dahil diyan...lubos akong nagpapasalamat na nakilala kita at minahal...

If i will be given another chance to live my life all over again...
I wouldn't change a thing...
God have blessed me enough when He allowed me...
to be part of your life...

now...
i think...
I can let the missing puzzle piece fit in...

Get to Know 'Twilight' Vamp Bree Tanner

If you haven't had a chance to read Stephenie Meyer's "The Short Second Life of Bree Tanner: An Eclipse Novella" but you want to learn more about Bree Tanner -- the short-lived but still very important "Eclipse" character-before the movie hits theaters on June 30, then you must check out this featurette from Summit that introduces the newborn vampire.

Bree Tanner is played by Jodelle Ferland, which I personally think is really right for the role of Bree. She's very cute, cute and lovable vampire. Seeing Bree alive in this video made me cry. I cried after reading The Short Second Life of Bree Tanner online and I end up wishing Stephenie would have ended Bree's story in Eclipse differently ~ she even said the same thing herself...

Can't wait to see Eclipse!

Our Last Vacation...

For some, the obstacles are few and far between...
For others, obstacles can lurk at every turn...
It's up to us as individuals how we deal with each situation...
We can fret and worry...
We can repeat the "Why me?" mantra until we turn blue...
But it doesn't help... been there... done that...

If you seek the positive, even in a tragic event...
you will be able to walk away with new insight or joy in the fact that...
you knew the person or had memories from happier times...

I'm just glad, we have memories and pictures...
of our last vacation with my mom... to live by...

I love you, Ma...
I miss you so much...

The Short Second Life of Bree Tanner

Read This Book Online
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After reading this (for almost 5 hours) online, I definitely feel a lot of sympathy towards the newborns who were merely pawns in Victoria's quest for revenge. After reading this you will care about what happens to her, even though as a Twilight fan you'll already know the outcome...a tragic end for Bree. Maybe you'll be left feeling, as Meyer was, that Bree's outcome should have been different. She deserved better. It was amazing to get Bree's side of the story to see her have the same struggles as twilight favorites such as love, devotion and pure confusion as well as the all new newborn experience which Bella didn't go through. It actually makes me appreciate Edward a lot more for his compassion; and love Bree as a strong-willed intelligent character. It's a shame it couldn't end well for her, but knowing this Stephanie Meyer did something quite amazing in that she brought the story to a place where you knew it was going to happen, Bree knew it was going to happen and you kind of wanted that for her, that final peace as the truth becomes known to the ones that need to know and yet again love is avenged.

After finishing this, I went back and re-read Bree's main scene in Eclipse (p. 568-578 in paperback), and I loved reading the story from both perspectives. Getting inside Bree's head was really interesting, while it was also great to go back and revisit the scene through Bella's eyes. I also enjoyed Bree's exchanges with Carlisle, Esme and Edward. Mostly Edward. I've missed him since the books ended. Meyer really needs to release Midnight Sun sometime soon!

A brilliant read and an amazing brilliant character! Another good short book by Stephenie Meyer to read!